I’m kind of back. The following things happened in the recent past that have left me spinning my wheels on doing any sort of writing that isn’t the cliched and tortured journal writing:
- My wife and I split up. We’re still friends and we still share 50% custody of the boy (who is 9 now for those playing along at home) but it’s permanent due to the unforgivably weird stuff that happened over the course of this past summer. I’m in an apartment now and I’m relatively happy. After nearly 20 years of being a couple I’m figuring out how the world works again. Some of this is incredibly tedious but for the most part it’s like I discovered what I genuinely like and enjoy again and have a bit of space and time to explore those things.
- Living as a renter has been an adjustment after 10+ years of owning homes. I’m making it sound much worse than it actually is because I’m a big baby and also because I generally dislike people and now I live with bunch of them in a building. I’m aware of how terrifically lame that sounds and is. My crucifixion is at dawn. I’ve already started on the nails.
- After a incredibly long period of being generally unhappy and without real direction (see number one in this list), I finally went to see a therapist about my depression. I’m not dealing with it pharmaceutically but I feel like I have things more under control than I have in a long time. I had to work through a lot of stuff from my childhood and although this work is unfinished and will remain so until my finances are in drastically better shape than they are now, I feel like I can see a path forward out of the murk. That said, my depression was relatively mild but long term and persistent so I’m relieved and kind of a wuss in one greyish snowball. Go figure.
- The state of the US is the worst that it has ever been. We need to figure this out for the sake of the world around us and to salvage what remains of the United States’ reputation of being an oasis of freedom and opportunity. It’s a snake oil salesman’s show right now.
Anyway, that’s where I’m at. What the hell are you up to?